When I had the meeting with the Study Abroad Department before I left for Singapore, they told me that everyone will probably face a roller coaster. This roller coaster was an emotional one of course, but I didn’t really believe them. I thought I would be nervous yes, but I didn’t think I would be at a low point.
I was wrong!!!!
At first, I was very overwhelmed and was nervous all the time because it is my first time travelling and I came alone. I felt like I needed to facetime my boyfriend every minute. I felt like I needed to call my mom everyday. But, there is a time difference of 16 hours and so at some point they had to go to bed and for me, the day was just starting.
I am actually kind of glad for the time difference in a sense because it forced me to deal with it myself. I couldn’t depend on these people throughout the day because they were sleeping and I was here by myself. It was hard at first because I would just wait until they woke up so I could talk to them but eventually I stopped doing that because I started exploring.
I’m glad I got myself out of the phase because now I feel like my normal, independent self.
But, as much fun as I was having doing all the things I was doing and seeing all the places I was visiting, I began to miss home. Recently, I felt at my lowest. Now I won’t go into too much detail because who wants to hear about that LOL. But, basically for anyone who is travelling abroad for the first time, this is normal!! Do not worry!! You can do it and you will do it! My boyfriend gave me some really kind words on how I need to appreciate all the things I did in order to get here in the first place. My friend Elrod, was giving me some really nice advice on how to stay motivated to study for school. I appreciate all of these things and this is something that I was looking forward to experiencing. Studying abroad is so much more than just visiting cool places, it really helps you grow as a person from all different angles.
I am sure I will touch base with this topic again throughout my remaining 3 months here.
